I'm sorry I haven't written... wait. It's my blog... I write when I want. So there.
I'm holding at 245... I haven't really been trying, or exercising much. I've been tending a broken heart... We all know that right? The one that makes you swear off relationships and cry into pillows every night... I think boo! Two thumbs, severely down.
But the silver lining these things always seem to have, in this situation, is a little bit of clarity in life. I'm seeing my goals laid out before me... I see the woman I want to be, not in the physical sense... in the soul sense.
I've been reading a book... devouring it really. Eat, Pray, Love. If you haven't read it... get thee hence to the bookstore, yesterday! This woman is me. She writes the way I do... talks the same and has the same desires. The journey she is on is one I feel I'm on as well. I guess "was" is the better word...
Anyways... I'm not going to ramble. I'm making a lot of changes in my life, heartache always seems to incite such things. I don't know when I'll write again. I'm sorry I'm being selfish and un-supportive of your journeys. I sincerely hope things are wonderful for each of you. I promise that I will take the time to catch up with each of you once I get some things straight in my life.
XOXO M
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Encouragement
You guys are AMAZING! I think this is really going to be the thing that helps me win this fight once and for all... it's soo amazing to open this blog and see ppl that have struggled as I do, hell ppl that still strugle... ppl that are fighting with me. I LOVE it.
I don't know why this week has been kind of downward as far as the goals go... and not in a good down kindda way. I made deals with myself... which I am quickly learning is a bad bad thing. I reason that I can't go for a run tonight, my IPOD is dead. I'll charge it over night and as penance I will get up 3 hours early and do 3 miles.... I wake up and realize I've sabotaged myself, the IPOD was forgotten and never plugged in. I swear it's like I have this alter ego... I think I'll call her Betty... Black Betty. She's evil. She does not want me to succeed. She distracts me, and makes deals that she knows she won't keep...
I think I've decided on my "laid to rest" pic. It will be Betty... now that my nemesis has a name, she's going DOWN!!!
Wish me luck guys!
XOXOXO M
I don't know why this week has been kind of downward as far as the goals go... and not in a good down kindda way. I made deals with myself... which I am quickly learning is a bad bad thing. I reason that I can't go for a run tonight, my IPOD is dead. I'll charge it over night and as penance I will get up 3 hours early and do 3 miles.... I wake up and realize I've sabotaged myself, the IPOD was forgotten and never plugged in. I swear it's like I have this alter ego... I think I'll call her Betty... Black Betty. She's evil. She does not want me to succeed. She distracts me, and makes deals that she knows she won't keep...
I think I've decided on my "laid to rest" pic. It will be Betty... now that my nemesis has a name, she's going DOWN!!!
Wish me luck guys!
XOXOXO M
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Who was THAT?
I feel like some other person inhabited my body yesterday... I don't know what happened. I ate ALL day... I can't think of a time when I ate that I was actually hungry, I just remember feeling this pit in my stomach saying that I needed to have food. It carried on through my first job... 1030 to 2100... then through the second 2100 to 0400. I had Taco Bell for the first time in at least two mos... You know they have salsa verde now?!? It's no where near as good as my homemade version, but it worked. The point here is it was just a weird day. I didn't feel like myself through the whole of it.
I woke up this morning... remembering all that I had eaten and wondered, what the hell happened yesterday. I felt perfectly normal today and went right back to all my healthy eating... i of course jumped on my scale... I'm down to 245, but scared to get back on it in the next day or two for fear it will jump up to 300 over night.
Anyone ever had this happen?
I woke up this morning... remembering all that I had eaten and wondered, what the hell happened yesterday. I felt perfectly normal today and went right back to all my healthy eating... i of course jumped on my scale... I'm down to 245, but scared to get back on it in the next day or two for fear it will jump up to 300 over night.
Anyone ever had this happen?
Sunday, October 10, 2010
And enter a worn out me
ok... so I've spent 4 hours catching up on reading... I'm REALLY sorry if I didn't make it to you... I got to the H's on my list. I promise I will do better, but my butt is asleep and I'm dying to get home.
Hope everyone has a fabulous Sunday... Get out, get moving!
XO M
Hope everyone has a fabulous Sunday... Get out, get moving!
XO M
Saturday, October 9, 2010
It's me again Margret
Ok... I know it's been forever! Work has been crazy, making it hard to post there and until I get internet at my house... I'm stuck waiting until I can get to the coffee shop. I'm a slack ass... I know.
As you can see by the tracker above, I am down 12 lbs... or 14 if you count the 2 that I went up with at the start. I'm still not working out as much as I should... or promised myself. No excuse but laziness... It's hard to kick your own butt into shape, but I know I'm the only one that can.
Some of my stressors have found resolution, which is going to help A LOT! I made something the other night that I just HAVE to share. I found it on someone's blog, though at the moment, I don't know who to credit them... If you know, go ahead and comment. I am pressed for time, or I would go do the research. Anyways... It's called Unemployment Dinner... I have to think of or find another name for it... I hate telling ppl that's what it's called... It's a little off putting. Anyways... Onion, garlic, chard, northern beans and tomatoes... I added curry powder and served it over long grain brown rice... Oh my blog!! soooo good. I've been eating it everyday for three days... It makes a lot and the ingredients are under $10. I couldn't believe how much I would love it! I've never tried chard... I urge you to look it up if you have a moment or leave me a comment and I'll email the recipe.
In other, more personal news... I'm having a "missing home" moment. I haven't seen my mom in months... I have 2 new nieces I haven't met... Thanksgiving is coming up, the big family holiday... And some of my friends from Ireland will be coming in... today! Here I am stuck 6 hours away and while it doesn't seem far... money and transportation issues keep me away. Bummed is an understatement.
In happier news... I had an amazing time at Kings Island last weekend... Rode the coasters, went through some haunted "houses" and then watched... "midget wrestling". The later was quite appalling... I felt like these guys were exploiting themselves and for what? Money? Five minutes of fame? I will resist the urge to jump on my soapbox... Let's just say I sat on my phone the whole time, while my friends thought this was the funniest thing ever.
If I don't get a chance to stop by your blog and leave a personal comment today... please know you're in my thoughts... I'm sending positivity and encouragement to you and hoping to remember that you're pushing yourselves, so I have to push myself.
XOXO M
As you can see by the tracker above, I am down 12 lbs... or 14 if you count the 2 that I went up with at the start. I'm still not working out as much as I should... or promised myself. No excuse but laziness... It's hard to kick your own butt into shape, but I know I'm the only one that can.
Some of my stressors have found resolution, which is going to help A LOT! I made something the other night that I just HAVE to share. I found it on someone's blog, though at the moment, I don't know who to credit them... If you know, go ahead and comment. I am pressed for time, or I would go do the research. Anyways... It's called Unemployment Dinner... I have to think of or find another name for it... I hate telling ppl that's what it's called... It's a little off putting. Anyways... Onion, garlic, chard, northern beans and tomatoes... I added curry powder and served it over long grain brown rice... Oh my blog!! soooo good. I've been eating it everyday for three days... It makes a lot and the ingredients are under $10. I couldn't believe how much I would love it! I've never tried chard... I urge you to look it up if you have a moment or leave me a comment and I'll email the recipe.
In other, more personal news... I'm having a "missing home" moment. I haven't seen my mom in months... I have 2 new nieces I haven't met... Thanksgiving is coming up, the big family holiday... And some of my friends from Ireland will be coming in... today! Here I am stuck 6 hours away and while it doesn't seem far... money and transportation issues keep me away. Bummed is an understatement.
In happier news... I had an amazing time at Kings Island last weekend... Rode the coasters, went through some haunted "houses" and then watched... "midget wrestling". The later was quite appalling... I felt like these guys were exploiting themselves and for what? Money? Five minutes of fame? I will resist the urge to jump on my soapbox... Let's just say I sat on my phone the whole time, while my friends thought this was the funniest thing ever.
If I don't get a chance to stop by your blog and leave a personal comment today... please know you're in my thoughts... I'm sending positivity and encouragement to you and hoping to remember that you're pushing yourselves, so I have to push myself.
XOXO M
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Monday... AGAIN?!?!
That's right folks... Monday has now come TWICE this week. Why? For the love of all that is holy... I just don't know why! Ever had one of those days, that you know it's just not yours? That's me... and that's today... tomorrow's not looking too bright either.
Sorry bloggers... this entry will be not so blog spiring. It's been a rough few days... Eating and exercising has been good... There was a nice, or not so nice, internal battle at 5 am as to whether I was going to drag my arse outta bed and run or not... at 0615... I won, got out of bed, threw on shorts, long sleeve t and some runners. The straw that won that argument was me finding that my phone does in fact have a stopwatch feature... Can I describe the love I have for my Blackberry? not in words...
So loooong story short... I ran... well walked... I did forget the sports bra while celebrating my victory... mental note for future...
I did NOT get to Zumba last night... Some evil out there is lining up against me on that. I got there, joined a group standing in the parking lot, only to find that class was... wait for it... CANCELLED
have to post later... just found out that I can't be online at the new job... EVER! GASP oh well
Sorry bloggers... this entry will be not so blog spiring. It's been a rough few days... Eating and exercising has been good... There was a nice, or not so nice, internal battle at 5 am as to whether I was going to drag my arse outta bed and run or not... at 0615... I won, got out of bed, threw on shorts, long sleeve t and some runners. The straw that won that argument was me finding that my phone does in fact have a stopwatch feature... Can I describe the love I have for my Blackberry? not in words...
So loooong story short... I ran... well walked... I did forget the sports bra while celebrating my victory... mental note for future...
I did NOT get to Zumba last night... Some evil out there is lining up against me on that. I got there, joined a group standing in the parking lot, only to find that class was... wait for it... CANCELLED
have to post later... just found out that I can't be online at the new job... EVER! GASP oh well
Monday, September 27, 2010
Monday... Monday... Monday
New week!! Sooo what did I do last week? Let’s see… I exercised 2 of the three times… but I spent Sat and Sunday running around my second job at Aeropostale… I perspired, therefore… I’m counting it as activity. Still won’t count it as my 3rd workout… I’m not a cheater!! *looks at you agasp*
I drank all of my water last week… the weekend however, was a different story. What is it about not having your day on a schedule that makes fitting it all in soooo hard.
Zumba, I found out was actually an hour before I showed up last night… fantastic. But! There is a class tonight, so I will turn this Monday into a happy day… It’s my first day out of training at the new job… it was a little stressful.
Sorry this is so short, but today has been little too hectic to write. Promise tomorrow’s will be better or I’ll come back later to edit this and catch up with the rest of you weight losin cats!
Xo M
I drank all of my water last week… the weekend however, was a different story. What is it about not having your day on a schedule that makes fitting it all in soooo hard.
Zumba, I found out was actually an hour before I showed up last night… fantastic. But! There is a class tonight, so I will turn this Monday into a happy day… It’s my first day out of training at the new job… it was a little stressful.
Sorry this is so short, but today has been little too hectic to write. Promise tomorrow’s will be better or I’ll come back later to edit this and catch up with the rest of you weight losin cats!
Xo M
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